Entry #19

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This month is super special at my temple because it is the month of Kartik! For me it is a time where all the devotees come together to sing for the pleasure of the lord, every day! As much as I enjoy this month long celebration, I also have a hard time with it. I know that Kartik (Damodar) is the best, the purest of purifiers, and most glorious of all months. Also the month of Kartik is particularly dear to Lord Sri Krishna. I'm always so overwhelmed by by emotions when I'm listening to the pray that is sung every night. But as soon as its my turn to go up to offer my ghee lamp (shown in the second picture) I literally can't think of anything to pray or give thanks for. So I sit there feeling like an ungrateful fool waving a lamp around...

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  1. CHD:WCK!October 29, 2017 at 5:10 AM

    "So I sit there feeling like an ungrateful fool waving a lamp around..." You always seem to have a quotable. I swear, I would wear t-shirts with these things on them.

    If I would be welcome, I would love to visit your Temple one day. Places of devotion weird me out - i think it's the fruit of several branches rooted in my upbringing. But I also find them interesting because there is such a deep history of symbolism and richness of experience.

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